listening to: coldplay
feels like: having cookies and milk
Ahhh. I have to try and make this holiday as productive as I can. And so, I'm going to finish all my work as fast as I can so that I can slack and do whatever I want for the rest of the holidays. Good idea, no? yes? :D
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Konflik dan Stres
I hate making decisions. Choices. Whatever.
If you know me you know that.
I really really can't choose.
I'm probably the most indecisive person you'll ever know.
So now the situation is.
to go for
a. Cell group outing. Zoe's planning it. It's what I've been looking forward to the whole week. I never usually get to go out with friends. So this, yeah, I'm looking forward to it.
or
b. A portrait drawing competition at P. Ramlee's house for P. Ramlee rememberance day or something. Ms Chan picked me and some others to go for the thing. First prize is 150 ringgit in cash. It's not really the prize I want, though it IS pretty cool, eh, but I've never taken part in any art competition before. Colouring or whatever. Because I'm terrible with colours. I can only draw. So HERE'S a competition were there is only drawing involved. And the teacher actually thinks I can win. I'm worried my lack of activity in outside competitions is going to affect my aplication to college or for a scholarship or whatever.
So mom was really awesome, being the only person who really tried to help me make a decision. Ah ily. But of course it all comes down to me, though usually how I solve these situations where I have to choose between two things is that I manipulate the situation so that I don't have a choice, or so that I don't have to choose and can have the best of both things, or I tembak saja. (but the tembak-ing doesn't really lead to a good choice, but at least I don't have to think about what I'm going to decide on anymore.) So tembak-ing is the usual way I go by, because even if I try, in most situations the first two ways can't work.
Ahh. Dilemma. I've been praying about it but I still don't know what to do. Though I'm leaning on going for the care group thingy, because it's the easier way out, and what I always do. Just do the one I'm most comfortable with and what I've done before. At the competition I'll be alone and it'll be the first time I ever do something like this so yes, I'm scared. Which is why my heart or my brain or whatever is telling me to go to the care group. But there's this part of me that really wants to try doing the competition. The new thing. Alas, I don't know what part of me is saying these two different things. So I can't really use the whole 'listen to your heart' thing since I don't know what my heart is saying. (btw that sounded so cheesy hahah)
But yeahhhh. What I'm trying to say up there ^ is that when it comes to making a decision, I'll just go for the easier one. but not necessarily the right one. And it sucks that I do it all the time.
Which is why right now I feel like my head is about to rip in two.
It's not even that baad or serious of a situation. But this is me, hahah, going crazy over something like this.
If you know me you know that.
I really really can't choose.
I'm probably the most indecisive person you'll ever know.
So now the situation is.
to go for
a. Cell group outing. Zoe's planning it. It's what I've been looking forward to the whole week. I never usually get to go out with friends. So this, yeah, I'm looking forward to it.
or
b. A portrait drawing competition at P. Ramlee's house for P. Ramlee rememberance day or something. Ms Chan picked me and some others to go for the thing. First prize is 150 ringgit in cash. It's not really the prize I want, though it IS pretty cool, eh, but I've never taken part in any art competition before. Colouring or whatever. Because I'm terrible with colours. I can only draw. So HERE'S a competition were there is only drawing involved. And the teacher actually thinks I can win. I'm worried my lack of activity in outside competitions is going to affect my aplication to college or for a scholarship or whatever.
So mom was really awesome, being the only person who really tried to help me make a decision. Ah ily. But of course it all comes down to me, though usually how I solve these situations where I have to choose between two things is that I manipulate the situation so that I don't have a choice, or so that I don't have to choose and can have the best of both things, or I tembak saja. (but the tembak-ing doesn't really lead to a good choice, but at least I don't have to think about what I'm going to decide on anymore.) So tembak-ing is the usual way I go by, because even if I try, in most situations the first two ways can't work.
Ahh. Dilemma. I've been praying about it but I still don't know what to do. Though I'm leaning on going for the care group thingy, because it's the easier way out, and what I always do. Just do the one I'm most comfortable with and what I've done before. At the competition I'll be alone and it'll be the first time I ever do something like this so yes, I'm scared. Which is why my heart or my brain or whatever is telling me to go to the care group. But there's this part of me that really wants to try doing the competition. The new thing. Alas, I don't know what part of me is saying these two different things. So I can't really use the whole 'listen to your heart' thing since I don't know what my heart is saying. (btw that sounded so cheesy hahah)
But yeahhhh. What I'm trying to say up there ^ is that when it comes to making a decision, I'll just go for the easier one. but not necessarily the right one. And it sucks that I do it all the time.
Which is why right now I feel like my head is about to rip in two.
It's not even that baad or serious of a situation. But this is me, hahah, going crazy over something like this.
I'm sorry but I love this tooooo.
ahh. the charlieissocoollike web video show thingy whatever this is. hahahah.
All that stuff about the high heels and earrings and hair cracked me up.
'Why do women wear high heels?
Why do you get a better signal on your mobile phone is you stand on a chair??
It's the same principle, if women are higher up on their high heels then they can get a better brain wave signal!' -Charlie.
<3
ahh. the charlieissocoollike web video show thingy whatever this is. hahahah.
All that stuff about the high heels and earrings and hair cracked me up.
'Why do women wear high heels?
Why do you get a better signal on your mobile phone is you stand on a chair??
It's the same principle, if women are higher up on their high heels then they can get a better brain wave signal!' -Charlie.
<3
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
These exam results are probably my worst. Ever.
I'm just barely on the mark for an 'A'. I'm getting a lot of 75s...... this is bad. Especially compared to my last exam. I guess I really deserve this, with my last minute studying and all. But for some subjects where I really really really studied, I made stupid and careless mistakes. Ah boy. I'll do better next time.
I'm just barely on the mark for an 'A'. I'm getting a lot of 75s...... this is bad. Especially compared to my last exam. I guess I really deserve this, with my last minute studying and all. But for some subjects where I really really really studied, I made stupid and careless mistakes. Ah boy. I'll do better next time.
Monday, May 25, 2009
100th post. gosh. I didn't know I posted that many. it's not THAT many but, dude, it's got like, 3 digits. bwahahh. okay, nvm.
So todayyyy.
Pritam wasn't as annoying as usual. Hmm. Maybe it was because today she'd finally get to have her lessons back. Because 0800 to 0900 was the last paper for us Form 3s. BM. I told myself, ehhh, no worries, I've got the whole weekend to study for a one hour paper..., so it comes down to this.
About half an hour of reading my precious BM Longman revision book until 10 pm when I feeling incredibly sleeping, so I thought I'd take a much needed break, but of course I slept right through till the morning. Even though I set my alarm (which always fails to wake me up) for 11 pm. Ahaaaa.
Neways. Found out later that I only got 7 wrong for that paper. TCHYEAHHHH. New personal best. Highest that I ever got was last year, 32/40. Ahah. My dad's all 'It's THAT hard?!'. Ask me and I'd say yes. Ask my friends and you'll get a different answer lol.
Uhm. After the BM exam, I got back my Science paper. Well, I got what I studied for. A loww 'A'.
Alicia and I got into a debate again about Adam and Kris. hahahh. We will never have peace with that.
Also, Pn Azlina came into our class to talk to the Agama teacher earlier in the day. So we asked her if we were gonna have to do our Oral today, and she said yes. So for the rest of the day we were memorizing our Oral scripts like crazy, and then when the two BM periods come, she doesn't show up. Maaaan. Now I gotta start memorizing again for tomorrow.
Pn Farm didn't show up for Chinese either. Yay no mandarin oral yet.
Then I reach home at 3.15, eat lunch yada yada, then me and mayo started watching this movie called 'Dan In Real Life'. It had Steve Carell in it (his HAIR looks like dad's hair. srsly. so from the back if you don't see Steve Carell's larger than my dad's nose, you'd totally think it's my dad.) and it was funny, to say the least.
And now I'm here. Typing this.
It's funny how I have those moments where I'm all 'I'm gonna blog about this when I get home' but never end up doing it because the urge to do it has kinda.... dimmed. Like how I wanted to blog about stuff that we discussed in Sunday School, since I don't really say all that I want to say, and sometimes things pop into my head after the lesson so I don't get a chance to say it, yeahhh.
oh i just remembered. *goes to watch david archuleta's vlog.*
So todayyyy.
Pritam wasn't as annoying as usual. Hmm. Maybe it was because today she'd finally get to have her lessons back. Because 0800 to 0900 was the last paper for us Form 3s. BM. I told myself, ehhh, no worries, I've got the whole weekend to study for a one hour paper..., so it comes down to this.
About half an hour of reading my precious BM Longman revision book until 10 pm when I feeling incredibly sleeping, so I thought I'd take a much needed break, but of course I slept right through till the morning. Even though I set my alarm (which always fails to wake me up) for 11 pm. Ahaaaa.
Neways. Found out later that I only got 7 wrong for that paper. TCHYEAHHHH. New personal best. Highest that I ever got was last year, 32/40. Ahah. My dad's all 'It's THAT hard?!'. Ask me and I'd say yes. Ask my friends and you'll get a different answer lol.
Uhm. After the BM exam, I got back my Science paper. Well, I got what I studied for. A loww 'A'.
Alicia and I got into a debate again about Adam and Kris. hahahh. We will never have peace with that.
Also, Pn Azlina came into our class to talk to the Agama teacher earlier in the day. So we asked her if we were gonna have to do our Oral today, and she said yes. So for the rest of the day we were memorizing our Oral scripts like crazy, and then when the two BM periods come, she doesn't show up. Maaaan. Now I gotta start memorizing again for tomorrow.
Pn Farm didn't show up for Chinese either. Yay no mandarin oral yet.
Then I reach home at 3.15, eat lunch yada yada, then me and mayo started watching this movie called 'Dan In Real Life'. It had Steve Carell in it (his HAIR looks like dad's hair. srsly. so from the back if you don't see Steve Carell's larger than my dad's nose, you'd totally think it's my dad.) and it was funny, to say the least.
And now I'm here. Typing this.
It's funny how I have those moments where I'm all 'I'm gonna blog about this when I get home' but never end up doing it because the urge to do it has kinda.... dimmed. Like how I wanted to blog about stuff that we discussed in Sunday School, since I don't really say all that I want to say, and sometimes things pop into my head after the lesson so I don't get a chance to say it, yeahhh.
oh i just remembered. *goes to watch david archuleta's vlog.*
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Soooo this post is about American Idol.
Hahah some people are saying the AI fever is 'over'. Not for me it isn't. Because I only just watched the results show earlier tonight.
1. I really really do not like the song 'So What'. Especially at the end of the top 13 performance of that Pink song, when they all shouted 'I WANNA START A FIGHT' or something along those lines I seriously wanted to laugh.
2. David Archuleta wasn't there. awhhh.
3. I love David Cook. And that new song. The beginning part of the song I was shushing my sister because she was going on about how all the David Cook songs sound the same yada yada, and she started saying all this after hearing David sing like TWO WORDS. She changed her mind at the end though. HA.
4. Kris Allen. [This doesn't really have to do with the result show but today when Adam C on hitz.fm said something along the lines of 'I don't think Kris Allen deserved to win. They say he won based on his looks, now I don't think that's a very good reason for winning, do you?'
Heh. Mad. Was. I. Adam Lambert probably has just as many fangirls as Kris. And duuuuude deejays shouldn't be so bias. Because they may get calls from people who tend to overeact like me calling him and setting him straight on facts.]
meh. it's real late. i'll continue this completely unnecessary post in the morning.
also, worth mentioning, it was Joanna's birthday yesterday!!! and Bing Hwang's birthday the day before! And Mr. Jeveraj's birthday on the same day as Bing Hwang's. whoah.
Hahah some people are saying the AI fever is 'over'. Not for me it isn't. Because I only just watched the results show earlier tonight.
1. I really really do not like the song 'So What'. Especially at the end of the top 13 performance of that Pink song, when they all shouted 'I WANNA START A FIGHT' or something along those lines I seriously wanted to laugh.
2. David Archuleta wasn't there. awhhh.
3. I love David Cook. And that new song. The beginning part of the song I was shushing my sister because she was going on about how all the David Cook songs sound the same yada yada, and she started saying all this after hearing David sing like TWO WORDS. She changed her mind at the end though. HA.
4. Kris Allen. [This doesn't really have to do with the result show but today when Adam C on hitz.fm said something along the lines of 'I don't think Kris Allen deserved to win. They say he won based on his looks, now I don't think that's a very good reason for winning, do you?'
Heh. Mad. Was. I. Adam Lambert probably has just as many fangirls as Kris. And duuuuude deejays shouldn't be so bias. Because they may get calls from people who tend to overeact like me calling him and setting him straight on facts.]
meh. it's real late. i'll continue this completely unnecessary post in the morning.
also, worth mentioning, it was Joanna's birthday yesterday!!! and Bing Hwang's birthday the day before! And Mr. Jeveraj's birthday on the same day as Bing Hwang's. whoah.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Hello Hurricane
Hello hurricane,
you're not enough.
Hello hurricane,
you can't silence my love.
THANK YOU Rawkerdood for uploading the recording of the Hello Hurricane preview! Go to LOBH the awesome-est site ever to download it. It's INCREDIBLE. I already called up Rehanna and Natalie and played it to them through the phone. Hah. It's so catchy, and even though I told myself that I'd just listen to it once and wait till it's officially released, but noooo, I think I listened to it like 10 times already. Though I'm trying not to listen to it anymore. lol. Ah. Love.
Also, this
http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=197111722&blogId=488416636
please read.
I totally remember in Form 1 there was this 'Dapur untuk Dafur' thing where you donate money and you get some t-shirt with Mawi's face on it. uhm.
you're not enough.
Hello hurricane,
you can't silence my love.
THANK YOU Rawkerdood for uploading the recording of the Hello Hurricane preview! Go to LOBH the awesome-est site ever to download it. It's INCREDIBLE. I already called up Rehanna and Natalie and played it to them through the phone. Hah. It's so catchy, and even though I told myself that I'd just listen to it once and wait till it's officially released, but noooo, I think I listened to it like 10 times already. Though I'm trying not to listen to it anymore. lol. Ah. Love.
Also, this
http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=197111722&blogId=488416636
please read.
I totally remember in Form 1 there was this 'Dapur untuk Dafur' thing where you donate money and you get some t-shirt with Mawi's face on it. uhm.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
1:41 "cause last year I was like *uhh, I don't wanna say any of my dumb ideas..* "
2:26 "I've gone with the whole twitter wave now *makes wave movement with hand*"
2:40 "I know it doesn't make sense a lot of the time, but you know I always say I... *pause* *lowers voice* never make sense but..."
2:49 "but uh..... YEAAH"
3:58 "so um.... WAIT! .. yeah. bye. :D"
( you don't know how many times I have those moments. hahah. I think my friends are annoyed because I do it so much. lol.)
I'm sorry, but how can you not love him?! haha. well i yeah i know most of you don't. love him i mean. haha. whatever. ignore me. lol.
he's such a loveable dork. muahaha.
I swear if I knew him on a personal basis, he'd be one of my best friends. HAA.
(*remembers boards* NOO when I say dork I DON'T mean 'vulgar'. :P)
My lil bro is still sad about what happened. :/ Pray that he'll be able to move on, or by God's grace, have it given back to him again.
Meh. Getting friend requests on facebook that I'm not so sure about approving.
Need to get down to work.
Wishing Sunday would come sooner.
Reminding self not to fantasize or day dream about people because it gets in the way with who the person really is.
Good night.
Meh. Getting friend requests on facebook that I'm not so sure about approving.
Need to get down to work.
Wishing Sunday would come sooner.
Reminding self not to fantasize or day dream about people because it gets in the way with who the person really is.
Good night.
Friday, May 1, 2009
Yet- Switchfoot
I honestly don't feel like listening to ANYTHING other than this
no jono speaking
jono speaking
here's a take on the lyrics from LOBH the awesome-est Switchfoot Fansite ever.
Yet- Switchfoot.
All attempts have failed
All my heads are tails
She's got teary eyes
I've got reasons why
I'm so confused
What's true or false?
What's fact or fiction after all?
I feel like I'm apparition's pet
But you haven't lost me yet
You haven't lost me yet
I'll run until my heart breaks in
No you haven't lost me yet
These days pass me by
Dream with open eyes
Nightmares haunt my days
Visions blur my nights
I'm loosing ground and gaining speed
I've lost myself or most of me
I'm headed for the final precipice
But you haven't lost me yet
You haven't lost me yet
I'll sing until my heart caves in
No you haven't lost me yet
Ooooooo, ooooo, yeah
If it doesn't break
If it doesn't break
If it doesn't break your heart is it love?
No, if it doesn't break your heart it's not enough
It's when you're breaking down with your insides coming out
That's when you find out what your heart is made up of
And you haven't lost me yet
No you haven't lost me yet
I'll sing until my heart caves in
No you haven't lost me yet
no jono speaking
jono speaking
here's a take on the lyrics from LOBH the awesome-est Switchfoot Fansite ever.
Yet- Switchfoot.
All attempts have failed
All my heads are tails
She's got teary eyes
I've got reasons why
I'm so confused
What's true or false?
What's fact or fiction after all?
I feel like I'm apparition's pet
But you haven't lost me yet
You haven't lost me yet
I'll run until my heart breaks in
No you haven't lost me yet
These days pass me by
Dream with open eyes
Nightmares haunt my days
Visions blur my nights
I'm loosing ground and gaining speed
I've lost myself or most of me
I'm headed for the final precipice
But you haven't lost me yet
You haven't lost me yet
I'll sing until my heart caves in
No you haven't lost me yet
Ooooooo, ooooo, yeah
If it doesn't break
If it doesn't break
If it doesn't break your heart is it love?
No, if it doesn't break your heart it's not enough
It's when you're breaking down with your insides coming out
That's when you find out what your heart is made up of
And you haven't lost me yet
No you haven't lost me yet
I'll sing until my heart caves in
No you haven't lost me yet
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